American pop singer Ariana Grande has admitted in an interview with British Vogue that she has been suffering from symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ever since the Manchester Arena bombing.

The attack took place on the 22nd of May 2017, with a man detonating a nail bomb at the end of the concert, killing himself and 22 others. The non-lethal injuries numbered over 800.

Grande revealed that she struggled to talk about the repercussions the attack had on her personally, due to the amount her fans had suffered in comparison. “I feel like I shouldn’t even be talking about my own experience – like I shouldn’t even say anything.” she explained, “I don’t think I’ll ever know how to talk about it and not cry.”

She also revealed how she had coped with the immediate aftermath, by going into the studio to record her newest record immediately after finishing her tour. “Everybody thought I was crazy when I got home and wanted to hit the ground running,” she said of the reactions of those around her, but it was a way for her to deal with the “most severe” anxiety she’d ever experienced.

Grande also used the interview to talk about the fans who were there with her that night, saying: “I know those families and my fans, and everyone there experienced a tremendous amount of [anxiety] as well,” and calling “time” the biggest healer.

You can read Grande’s full interview, which also discusses her upcoming album ‘Sweetener’, in British Vogue’s July issue, which is available at newsstands from June 8th.